Here we are. One year after I created this blog and I have.....13 written posts. I suppose it could be worse, I could have not written at all. I guess the most important thing I've gotten from this last year of writing blogs is that this has become an outlet. A place where I can be creative. A place where I can bravely (gulp) share my art. A place that I still have to force myself to return to because it presents a challenge. A place that I still very much feel vulnerable.
My first post was called, "Shouldn't this be easier" and if you go back and read it, this post may make more sense to you. I suppose writing blogs has become a little easier but, hitting the share button has not. In fact, it was only 4 months ago that I took the leap and made my blog public. Before that, only a few very encouraging people knew about it. Now I have (a whopping) 5 followers (hi guys!).
But have I accomplished my goal through this blog?
I'm teaching Seth Godin's book Linchpin to our School of Ministry students and we're currently studying "The Resistance". The resistance is the fear that prevents you from making yourself vulnerable. The fear that keeps you from sharing something you've worked so hard on, or worse, keeps you from even starting it. When it comes to my ultimate goal, the resistance has kept me quiet. It's kept me from even trying, for fear of humiliation and certain failure. I've even come up with a concept for my next "stepping stone" to make the transition easier but, sadly, have not even been able to muster up the courage for that.
I will get there. At some point my resolve will become stronger than my excuses; stronger than the fear I've let hold me still. When that happens, WATCH OUT! I can see it now... The wastebasket overflowing with wadded up notebook paper, and me looking like I've been through the fight of my life to come up with a chorus that reads....(dramatic pause)...."Hallelujah"....NO! Not another "Hallelujah"! Eureka! That's it! My first song will be called "Not Another Hallelujah"
Well there you have it, my first attempt at writing a song, here on blogger for all to see...The process of beating the resistance has begun! Wish me luck as I continue on my journey!